Belonging To Yourself

This weekend when I was in NYC I noticed an incredible self discovery. 

In May 2011 I went to NYC with my husband to attend a hair show. I remember standing in Time Square looking at my husband in his flannel, and work boots and me in my brassy blonde hair and cheetah sweater and thinking…. We don’t belong here. 

I knew we were country people and it was just a fun thing to do. A fun place to visit. 

But I truly deep down inside just kept thinking “I don’t belong here.” And I knew for a fact that we didn’t fit in. 

Especially my sweet husband, he stuck out like a sore thumb. I felt like everyone was watching us. I felt incredibly uncomfortable, nervous, and even anxious. 

I didn’t know where to go. I didn’t even know how to take transportation to get to that place that I didn't know I wanted to go to. 

I felt so disconnected from myself. I definitely didn’t know who I was, all I knew was I shouldn’t be there. 

Fast forward to this fall 2022. Over 10 years later. 

As I walked about the city I felt something I never felt before. 

I felt like I belonged. 

Even though this was not my home, not my people, and not my city. 

I felt this incredible sense of belonging. 

I knew who I was, I knew why I was there, I felt this inner self peace, self love and self acceptance that I had never experienced in a new and different place. 

I realized in that moment that when you truly build a sense of self belonging you can be anywhere, with anyone and feel like you truly belong. 

That sense of inner contentment, confidence and self is essential. 

I feel like I could travel the world, interact with different cultures, languages, and people and still feel like me. 

When I walked about the city, amongst millions of other people I felt confident. Something I’ve never experienced, ever. 

I reminded myself that it is not that I’m dressed differently, or that I look different. It is that inside I believe something about myself that 10 years ago I had no clue was available. 

I believe in who I am. 

I’m becoming more of that divine person I was meant to be. 

I feel purpose, I feel momentum forward. 

I feel like I can do things I never dreamed about doing before. 

When you truly understand who you are, when you truly tune in and create an inner belief of who you are you can be anywhere, with anyone and truly belong. 

It is the most liberating, powerful feeling I think I’ve ever experienced, and I wanted to share it with you. 

Fear doesn’t drive our life when we have this sense of belonging.